I remember a time in high school when I was choosing a college. So many people thought that going to school for fashion was a big mistake. As I reflect on this today, I remember being ashame to tell people what my major was. They would always respond with"What you gonna be, a designer? I thought to myself then and now..."THEY DONT GET IT." I didnt choose fashion as my major just to be apart. I choose fashion as my major because I love it. It was hard for me, to have my own identity because of my sister Samantha and her great deeds. Samantha is a great person and people always compared me to her. So when, I didnt watch what I said, dressed apart from the crowd, and have a forbidden opinion: the faculty thought I was wrong. But how could I be wrong "im not a goody goody..like SAM. I AM A REBEL AND DO WHAT I LIKE. I use to say to myself, "Shantall..tone it down and be more like Sam..." But now I know that everything that I'm not, makes me everything I am. I felt like people in High School just talked shit but didnt even understand the passion and drive that was given upon me. I have knowledge, just like Sam...but they couldnt look pass the fact that I was un apologetic about what I spoke. A VIVID MEMORY THAT I HAVE IS...MY GUIDANCE COUNSLER, saying "gurlie what u do, be like Sam"...and I simply thought to myself..FUCK THIS SCHOOL. WHAT I AM GONNA DO IS BE LIKE ME AND DO WHAT I FEEL. I AM ALWAYS PRO-SAM AND THEY TRIED TO MAKE MAKE AGAINST MY OWN BLOOD...MAYBE IT WASNT INTENTION(BUT IT CAUSED A MARK)....I AM WRITING THIS TO TELL MY FELLOW BELL'S AND BELLAS WHO I AM. SO HELL NO, I CAN NOT TONE...IT DOWN...AND BE LIKE SAM. SAM IS MY BEST FRIEND AND SISTER AND SHE WOULD NEVER WANT ME TO BE LIKE HER..."MAYBE FOLLOW HER PATHS TO SUCCESS...BUT NEVER BE LIKE HER."
SHANTALL ENGLISH
